Friday, May 14, 2010

Final English 101, page 2

The third way my life mirrors my hair is that even though we will it not to we are in a constant state of change even though we may have an antiquated style and views the changes are inevitable. The luster of my strawberry locks is dimmer, and silk gray threads are intertwining amongst the curls, and yet the curls become tighter and bouncier as I’m forced to travel the road with the ever passage of time. I have also lost some of my luster and shininess with time as I have come to accept there are some things I cannot change. Alcoholism is something I cannot change for others as they have to change it for themselves and this has taken a lot of my shiny idealism out of my life and locks. The loss of my husband, my home, my child, my security has taken a toll on my psyche maybe graying my soul. I think the changes at times devastating have moved me in new ways, taken flight on new ideas and possibilities and my hair also has responded with tighter bouncer curls as I too have a spring in my step. I think I’m maturing, fighting, bouncing forward as the sands of time rush faster I can contend with the lack of luster, the graying threads as long as I focus on the bouncy curls defining the new exciting possibilities that I have yet to even imagine.
My hair like me is defined by our past, in a constant state of semi controlled chaos, and constantly changing. My connection with the past antiquated in style and view none the less is part of defining me. My views may be as outdated as my hippie do but yet I have come to accept they are part of me, they will be unmanageable at times and give me challenges but in the end as we continue on the journey we will incorporate new ideas as time marches on and I will intertwine them amongst the curls. The say “nothing ventured nothing gained” and I believe that is true of my hair and my life. It is ok to have strict tight views from time gone by as they are part of you, it is ok to be out of control it shows passion for what you believe and who you are, and it is ok to incorporate new into the old in a tangled mass of you. Who knows maybe I will dye these curls black, or cut them off to a shoulder length modern do but either way my life and may hair are permanently intertwined as we race forward with the sands of time.

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